Shadows

Sometimes you want so badly to be accepted by someone that you drive them away instead and you can't turn the page over and start again, because they're gone - like the wind All that's left is a shadow in your mind... and you wish you could start over and you can't... and you wish you could start over and you can't and you wish.... and you can't and you can't and you wish you never met them... but you did. And that first time we met I laughed for 5 hrs and the last time we talked you said I freaked you out and I felt like you saw me as a weird stalker woman and I don't think I am her If you hadn't asked me out...I would've enjoyed being your friend We never actually went out ...but I would've enjoyed being your friend I've erased you from FB, but someday, somewhere... you're still in town. and I may bump into you somewhere, someday... and I never wanted to feel like this...afraid of another human being afraid of their fear - of me and I'm grateful for the people in my life who aren't scared of me who let me be close who love me and let me love them and you're not ever going to be one of those. and I have to let go of ever being friends with you I've entered your mind in a strange place and I'm going to stay in your world, in the places where friends don't go... and I just have to learn the lessons from this encounter and move on. It's about the difference between living in the heart and being in mind.